i cried this morning....not sure what is going on with the sx.....its crazy...andi'm the one getting yelled at? for what? not sure about that either...EVERYDAY.....his ugliness continues...not abusive ....but just plain flies off the handle at the least little thing...

i'm TIRED!!

our trip to the emerald island was JUST OK...he flew off of the handle at me in PUBLIC for god's sake..... and then again at the airport...he questions a TSA officer? wtf? and i got yelled at saying that if he had not guarded my pocketbook that iwould have yelled at him?

its NUTS and I'm GETTING TIRED AND TIRED AND tireder everyday...he is a good man, but there are a LOT of things coming out that i've never seen him him b/f ...is it his age?

i went with jjp and girls to the awesome mall..had a great time..and then back.. i'm SO BORED - don't KNOW what to do..... work ....we travel just enough to cause a problem if i did take a job...i need seomthing to DO!!!! i'm in a crapppppy mood today ...grrrrr!!!!!

was gone and had a great time...but today is just back to normal....and ugliness on his part...... he snaps at EVERYTHING i say or do....and why? he just got back w/ a presc. and he was throwing away something and all i said was don't throw the receipt away....and he jerked the flyer out of the trash and handed it to me.....i did not know where the receipt was.....if it was stapled to the bag since i don't go to this drugstore for anyyhing.....his actions were really uncalled for!

i'll be 54 July 2..and still at the same weight, same problems, same ole same ole...and can't seem to get it changed... my function tests have helped TREMENDOUSLY.....at least for me anyway...and for MY health.....

i'm TIRED!!

i'm so bored and need to GO SOMEWHERE ..perhaps alone..i'm going to bring that up . . i need a freakin break from all of this...]

i can't stand the thought of the ns........its gonna be a lot of $ and i'm afraid heartache..... but i can't do anything about it..and i'm certainly NOT going to say ONE MORE WORD about it.... so life goes on...

i need to get really busy and thinkg about MYSELF!!

*sigh*